Two posts ago, I touched on a big revelation I discovered during advanced vinyasa training: human being vs higher being. I thought I had it down but toward the end of last week I felt somewhat lost again between the two.. hence no post for awhile. I’ve been exploring my experiences.
This higher being mentality… seeing the higher self in others really helped me stay grounded during my flight back from Wisconsin. I was due to arrive home at midnight. The flight didn’t take off on time due to the weather and I could feel myself getting anxious and irritated because I didn’t want to miss my connecting flight and get stuck in Chicago. Of course that’s exactly what happened. I had missed my connecting flight by 5 minutes!!! Not only did I miss the flight, I missed the last flight out that night. Grrr!!! I stood in a long line to talk to the reservation agent and witnessed a flurry of irritated, angry, and rude people everywhere. One guy was so frustrated that he began yelling at the poor woman behind the desk. At that moment, I felt this huge relief come over me. Getting stuck wasn’t so bad because now my kids didn’t have to be woken up in the middle of the night to come pick me up and a great opportunity was presented to me to practice seeing the higher beings in people. Instead of standing there rolling my eyes and trying to figure what kind of tantrum I was going to give the woman behind the desk, I choose to breathe. I choose to not judge the guy who was yelling at the woman because I don’t know his story. I saw that he was just another person who was in his human being essence (reacting) and was probably wanting someone to just listen to him. I thought the woman was also in her human being essence (reacting and probably thinking, it’s not my fault) and was probably wanting people to stop yelling at her so that she can do what she could to help. She probably wanted someone to listen to her too.
What if we just listened to each other? Perhaps there would be no human being reaction…
When it was my turn, I could see the woman was just waiting for my complaint and I threw her off guard by asking her how she was holding up in this chaos. I could see a big veil of relief was lifted off her face. She relaxed. She smiled. I smiled. And she told me what I didn’t want to hear, but I heard her and knew it wasn’t her fault. She gave me a hotel voucher.
It gets better… this was one of the few times I checked my luggage and since it is a connecting flight, they wouldn’t give me my luggage that night. No change of clothes or any other personal comfort items. The moment I started to feel irritated I searched within myself for my higher being. I asked myself, “Do I really need to get upset? Does it really matter? Would it help the situation if I threw a hissy fit?” So off I go to look for something to eat. Every place was closing. I stood looking at the menu of one of the cafes that appeared to be open. The guy behind the register barked at me, “Are you just gonna stand there and look at the menu? Do you want to order? We’re closing!” WTF!!! Before I could make a smart ass comment, I said, “no thank you.. have a nice evening..” and excused him for being in his human being. He probably just wanted to go home to his family. I never felt so calm and sent my love to my family.
Now it really gets better… I arrive to the hotel for the night and the lady behind the desk gave me a big warm, chewy chocolate chip cookie. Finally! Someone is seeing my higher being!!
The next morning I get on the next flight. There was one seat left and it was a middle seat. The agent said I could take it or wait til the next flight. “That’s fine,” I said and the moment I said that, human being thoughts flashed thru my head. “What if I get squashed between two big people? two big droolers? Walked to my seat and there were two gentlemen already seated. Whew! They weren’t seat hogs and they looked decent. Business men. I could see they were also relieved that I was not a seat hog. The moment I snapped out of my thoughts, the coolest thing happened: spontaneous conversation that really connected us as higher beings. I would never say things like: “Watch out, I might grab your butt” while fumbling for my seat belt. We both bursted out laughing. These two gentlemen turned out to be the best people to be sandwiched in the middle seat with on a 4 hour flight. We talked about yoga and I taught one of them a calming breathing technique and gave a him a tip to elevate his legs after such a long flight. The other guy turned out to an ex studio owner. Can you imagine it? What are the chances that I get to sit next to someone who’s gone thru the process of owning a studio. So cool! In the end, the both of them confessed that they were nervous the middle person was going to be a seat hog too. We laughed! We even got up and went to the bathroom together.. ok not together in the same stall, but we were a team I think the other passengers were jealous we were having such a lovely conversation. Go figure!!! People actually talking to each other on a flight! I would have never met these higher beings if I was in my head about how annoying it was that I was stuck over night without my stuff and then I get stuck in the middle seat. (Pat and Dan, if you’re reading this, YOU GUYS ROCK! I’m so fortunate to have met you and you are coming to my studio grand opening
This experience left me feeling like if I connect to my higher being, I tap into a universal higher being, and things take care of it self. Being stuck in Chicago overnight and then getting the last middle seat on that plane was not a mistake or coincidence.
Brew on this for a bit… I’m still exploring this idea a bit more because as I said, I slipped out of this for a bit. More on that experience later! This post has gotten way too long