While everyone started to plan how they were going to “kick start” their new year’s off with resolutions galore, I sat back and watched my class list grow. One by one my schedule grew without me even trying to add new classes. The universe is kind like that when we let go of control. She was even kind enough to give me *all* morning classes as I wanted. I’m reminded that I should “be careful what I ask for” cause She pushed me to my edge and gave me crack of dawn classes all 5 days! I don’t know what I have signed myself up for because I was struggling with one 6:30am classes. How in the world did 1 turn into 5? I didn’t question it much and just said YES!
Day 3 of the first week of waking up at 5am and I dragged myself out of bed for those bright eyed bushy tailed early morning yogis. Thank goodness they are bright eyed cause I’m not a morning person. Why did I take these offers? I really don’t know and am riding this wave. On monday I was psyching myself out to see if I would survive this week without napping. “Your body will adjust,” people tell me. Oooooook, I say, I will trust. Well today came and I crashed after lunch. After the nap, I woke up and realized how much I was resisting. Why was I trying so hard to not take a nap? I dunno.. it’s one of those stupid things we do…. you know trying to be superman, superwoman all the time.
It all relates back to my mat so well for me. Since I’ve been sampling other classes, I’ve missed my home practice and I have been challenging myself extra this past week to get back into my groove. I pushed thru my asana practice until the end because I missed the sequence. I missed the sweat. I missed the rhythm of flow but most of all I really missed the strength of child’s pose. I didn’t hear her call… until I crashed.
Sometimes we need to literally fall on our face in order to wake up. Taking a nap was not a sign of weakness after all. Just like child’s pose is a pose of strength, a 30 minute nap was what I needed to re-energize.
This is the lesson the Universe had in store for me when she gave me 5am’s 5 days a week. I am grateful!