Happy New Year! I’m back on the grid and ready for lots of blogging and sharing this year…
2011 was surely a roller coaster ride with lots of love and broken hearts, successes and failures, proud moments and disappointments, new friends and old friends rekindled but mainly lessons galore. I can’t keep track of the number of lessons I’ve encountered (some still in progress of being learned). All this was driven by one word I choose to live by in 2011.. that word was “risk.” Some notable risky things I did (risky meaning out of my comfort zone with no excuses and facing my fears, especially the silly ones): hitched a ride from a total stranger in Wisconsin, left the U.S. for the very first time by myself, learned how to swim by trying to drown myself, putting myself up on youtube (gah!), conquering my fear of handstands (yay! I can do it without touching the wall.. now gotta trick my mind to go away from the wall), looked love right in the heart even if it meant breaking out of it’s shell, stood up for myself even though I was rubbing people’s feather’s the wrong way and mostly challenging my own way of doing things the same ‘ol way.
As I dragged my feet through the holiday’s, I could not come up with a new word for 2012. I thought and thought. Tried and tried. Until one morning, I was hiking at my favorite spot with a friend and we were talking about what we wanted to accomplish in 2012. I said, “I’ve been thinking about my word and I can’t seem to nail it.” As we walked up the hill, I could hear my breath heaving and it occurred to me that I try too hard! And I swear to you, I heard a whisper and the voice said “freedom.”
I blurted it out loud, “FREEDOM.” A sense of ease swept over me. I was trying so hard to come up with the perfect word and now the perfect word chose me. How will I be more free in 2012? Mmm.. let me count the ways: giving myself space to just let go of control, stop trying to control outcomes, letting go of fears (yes there’s more of them), being in flow and flux with more ease and faith, ohhh faith.. that’s a good one, inviting faith into my life, freeing myself from guilt… practicing forgiveness (of others and especially of myself), giving others freedom by allowing others to be just as they are (this is a good one!), freeing my psyche of past debris and repetitive thoughts, living and loving in the moment.. let’s repeat that one, living and loving in the moment.
I’m exicted to have FREEDOM guide me in 2012. Do you choose a word? What are your resolutions?
Here’s a recap of my favorite posts from 2011:
Feb: I Get To
Aug: Life Right Now
Sept: Leading With Your Heart
Oct: Lessons Learned
Dec: The Space Between
Feeling much gratitude for you for reading, sharing of yourself here, and walking this journey with me!!!